Monday, March 23, 2009

Birthdays Times FOUR

I apologize for taking so long to make a blog post. So many have asked how we are doing as most check on our blog for updates. I have definitely been in a funk. I am not feeling "bloggy" lately and to be honest, I don't know if I will continue this blog.
Our adoption is coming along. There were some issues right after we signed on with our first agency and we decided to pull out. (No fault of the agency whatsoever. In fact, they were wonderful.) We have signed on with another agency and are now waiting for a referral.

How am I doing? Well, I am doing okay. I am still having hard days and hard moments, but for the most part, I am doing okay. I think my biggest issue is fear. Fear that what's left of my heart will be destroyed beyond repair. I know that's not possible with God, but I can't help but humanly feel that way.

God is my refuge, an ever-present help in trouble. Psalm 46:10

Aubrey's 10th birthday was on February 23. Finally two-digits!!! The big "One-Oh." She had lots of fun. Daddy took her to the rodeo for a special date and then she got to have a "Webkins" slumber party the following week. Between the rodeo, her actual birthday, and her slumber party; I think her birthday lasted two-whole weeks. It's still so hard to believe that she's my baby girl. It feel like yesterday that I brought her home from the hospital; all six pounds of her.

Daddy and Aubrey on their way to the National PBR Rodeo.

Two new WEBKINS!!!

Webkins Cake

Aubrey and a few of her friends along with Shay and Sammy.

My birthday was on March 2. I won't say how old I am. I'll let you all guess. My kids and husband, made is special, like they always do.

Mom with her eyes closed.

Mom with her eyes closed... again.

Josi's birthday would have been on March 5. Josi would have turned six years old. I did have the pleasure of spending her last birthday with her in Guatemala. We had a big party with a pinata that was bigger than me! She loved every minute of it. Here is a video clip of that memorable day.

I do have a lot of video of Josi while she was in the bathtub. That was the only time she came out of her shell with me. She understood what was going on and who I was, but still she was very shy with me.

Haley's 12th birthday was on March 18. We had a small celebration at home. She received what she asked for, which was an ipod. She did pay for half of it. Besides the fact that she has grown like a weed this year, (her shoe size is now bigger than mine!) Haley is becoming such a beautiful young lady both inside and out.

Shay is really catching on to this whole 'birthday business.' After celebrating two birthdays in February, and three birthdays in March, this kid knows whats going on and how to sing it. Of course he knows that after the song is time to eat cake.

Great pic of Haley and the boys.

Haley and 'the ipod'


Alison said...

I'm so glad you posted, as I check your blog daily and had been worried. I'm sure that we all understand if you can't continue to blog, but please know that your story has done so much. I've shared it with quite a few people that have become quite interested in adoption rights. Know that you are in my thoughts and my prayers.

Faith, Family, Future said...

Missing you bunches. You have been on my heart so heavily the past few weeks.Just wanted you to know that you are always in my prayers and on my mind.

So glad to see the girls had wonderful birthdays. They look so happy and I love Shays new "do"!!


Will and Aileen said...

So happy to see an update from you. We will pray for your adoption process to go smoothly forward and for you to have your child or chilren home very soon.

If it helps any to know, I still have moments or days when I am in a "funk" about our Ariana and it has been more than a year since she died. I also wanted to say, though, that now when I think of her it is with joy that I was allowed to know her, not just sorrow at her loss. I pray that this will happen for you too.

God bless you and your family!

Our Family of 5 said...

So glad to see a update from you Carla. All them Birthdays, my goodness! Looks like everyone had a good time. The kids are all growing so much!
Keep us all posted!

Mary Ann said...

I am sooo glad to see an update! I have been thinking of you! I am praying for you and your family with your next adoption! Can't wait to hear great news! Happy Belated B/D/s to everyone! I loved all the pictures of your happy kids! The video of being w/ Josi late B/D is absolutley priceless! WHat a happy time and memory to have!

Owlhaven said...

I was so sorry to read about Josi.

I am glad you are enjoying the book. I started a post about my laundry room just for you that I will post sometime next week.


Mary, mom to manym

Linda said...

I'm so glad to see your post, and know that you're okay. I've been thinking about youall. I'll be praying for you and your adoption. Love the birthday pix!

Rhonda said...

Happy birthday to all of you. I am so incredibly sorry for Josi that I don't know even what to say. I didn't know about your blog from the very beginning but near the latter part. Please know our heart and prayers are with you and our family always.

Ruthanne said...

What a month!!! I would be 10lb heavier just from the cake. lol

Josi's birthday must have been so hard for you...I'm glad you had so many other celebrations to focus on and to bring you joy.
Hugs, sister.

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